Today is Monday and I am just waiting for Thursday to roll around. Just want to get this ultrasound over with. I am nervous but not as nervous as last time. Last time I cried everyday because I just knew something wasn't right. This time, I don't know it's just different. Maybe my pregnancy symptoms are more convincing. My breasts are very sore. It is worse some days than others but it's always there. No morning sickness but when I get hungry I must eat immediately or I get nauseous, light headed, and start to feel like I can't eat anything even though I am hungry. I have some strange pulling sensations in my lower abdomen. Mostly when I stand up real quick from sitting. I am definitely emotional, yesterday I cried when Brett Farve got hit in the chin during the game. Then I cried when Tom Brady hugged Randy Moss. Seriously!!
Just really trying to stay positive about this ultrasound but also trying to be guarded as well. If things go bad I have to be prepared. I will not really have anytime to have a melt down. I have to work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night. Then I am driving 5 and half hours by myself to the beach on Sunday after I get up. Then I have to spend the night alone at the resort before I pick up my mom on Monday morning. Yikes, I don't know if I am that strong. Hopefully I won't have to worry about it and everything will be good and I can celebrate!! That is what I want to do is celebrate. I am tired of disappointment.
Tracy and I have always overcome the hardships handed to us. And I think we handle them with grace. We have lost a house, been through foreclosure. Had job changes, working opposite shifts and days, surgeries, been through nursing school twice, phlebotomy school, cared for an impossible individual in our home, had some problems with alcohol and fighting, had to put a dog down, dealt with vacations alone, and the loss of a baby. I am sure there is much much more. It always seems like when get through something hard we are rewarded with something better! I hope this trend continues!!
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