6 week ultrasound. Little gestational sac with a tiny heartbeat in the upper left corner.

Another great, AMAZING, ultrasound!!

Monday I had another ultrasound. Saw our little bean, with a healthy little heart beat. Measuring ahead of schedule at 7 weeks 5 days. My mom was there. She cried, Tracy cried, I was just so relieved to see a healthy little bean. I was released from the care of the fertility clinic. Going to call the midwives tomorrow to make my first appointment.
My mom took us shopping at babies-r-us. She wanted to buy some stuff cause she lives so far away and wanted to be able to enjoy the experience together. She bought us a car seat stroller set, a pack-n-play, a swing, a changing table pad, a crib mattress, some baby towels, receiving blankets, cloth diapers, and several odds and ends. I was not expecting that at all! Very exciting!! We also went to the fabric store and bought fabric for a baby quilt.
Hopefully I can get some ultrasound pics posted.

Little Flicker!!

Had my ultrasound on Wednesday. I was able to push it up a day cause some scheduling stuff changed. So I didn't have to much time to stress about it. After a few minutes of intense searching we found the heartbeat!!! It was a little tiny flicker in the upper left corner of the sac. So small but it was definitely there! Phew, pretty darn relieved!! Next ultrasound is Monday Nov. 15th. Hope my mom wants to come!!
I have tried a million times to upload the ultrasound picture but it just won't do it!!! I will try again in a few days. Going to rest, work the next 2 nights then off to the beach with my mom!! Yay!!! A happy vacation!!

Just some blah blah

Today is Monday and I am just waiting for Thursday to roll around. Just want to get this ultrasound over with. I am nervous but not as nervous as last time. Last time I cried everyday because I just knew something wasn't right. This time, I don't know it's just different. Maybe my pregnancy symptoms are more convincing. My breasts are very sore. It is worse some days than others but it's always there. No morning sickness but when I get hungry I must eat immediately or I get nauseous, light headed, and start to feel like I can't eat anything even though I am hungry. I have some strange pulling sensations in my lower abdomen. Mostly when I stand up real quick from sitting. I am definitely emotional, yesterday I cried when Brett Farve got hit in the chin during the game. Then I cried when Tom Brady hugged Randy Moss. Seriously!!

Just really trying to stay positive about this ultrasound but also trying to be guarded as well. If things go bad I have to be prepared. I will not really have anytime to have a melt down. I have to work Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night. Then I am driving 5 and half hours by myself to the beach on Sunday after I get up. Then I have to spend the night alone at the resort before I pick up my mom on Monday morning. Yikes, I don't know if I am that strong. Hopefully I won't have to worry about it and everything will be good and I can celebrate!! That is what I want to do is celebrate. I am tired of disappointment.

Tracy and I have always overcome the hardships handed to us. And I think we handle them with grace. We have lost a house, been through foreclosure. Had job changes, working opposite shifts and days, surgeries, been through nursing school twice, phlebotomy school, cared for an impossible individual in our home, had some problems with alcohol and fighting, had to put a dog down, dealt with vacations alone, and the loss of a baby. I am sure there is much much more. It always seems like when get through something hard we are rewarded with something better! I hope this trend continues!!

All things have a way of working themselves out

Had my beta today!! 574.2!!! So awesome! That is doubling every 48 hours, exactly on schedule. I am quite a bit relieved today. And the ultrasound...they wanted to schedule it for 6 weeks!! So perfect, I didn't have to make any decisions about that!! It is scheduled for Thursday Nov. 4. I am very excited but still a bit nervous. It just really needs to be good. Everything is so aligned and it feels so right!! I just need this to work!! I am really hoping to surprise my mom with some ultrasound picture of my little bean!! Keep me in positive light...

Beta update!!

My beta on Thursday was 144!!! Holy cow that's awesome!! Having another on Monday to make sure we are still going in the right direction. I will schedule an ultrasound also.

Here is my dilemma: My doctor is going to want to schedule a 7 week ultrasound. Well I will be in Myrtle Beach with my mom that week! It is always something! I am really excited about going to the beach with my mom. She is flying to Myrtle Beach from NH, we are going to stay for a week then drive back here. She will stay for a few more days then fly back. So with that being said, wouldn't it be kind of cool to have my mom come to the first ultrasound if I scheduled it for Monday when we got from the beach? That would be 7 weeks and 5 days. But will I be completely insane all week while I am trying to have fun with my mom, maybe it would be a distraction to be at the beach? Do I want to ask for an early ultrasound, like on the Friday before I leave? That would be 6 weeks and 2 days. But if the ultrasound was bad or not what we would hope to see, (which is not going to be...positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts) would I then have a even more terrible week at the beach!! AAAAHHHH! This is driving me nuts right now! Feel free to give me some input! I'm freaking out here.

Alright, got to think about getting ready for work. Tonight is my Friday! Hopefully it's a good one!

Wow I really need to update!!

Sorry I have been so slack in my updating!! Holy cow. OK starting from the last post. I countinued to go to acupuncture once a week. She gave me some awful tasting herbs to take 3 times a day. On October 5th I went in for my ultrasound to check my follicles. And WOW I had 2 big ones!! One was 28mm and the other 21mm. Both big enough to ovulate!! I also had taken 7 days of Clomid instead of 5. So they gave me the trigger shot in the office that day and told me to come back for the insemination the next day!  When the nurse called me back into the lab and said that the sperm specimen had won the prize! It was the best frozen sperm she's ever seen!! WOW! So we did the insemination. I had 2 acupuncture treatments that day, one before and one after the insemination. I went home and waited for the next 12 days!

On Friday night October 15th I had some brown spotting while I was at work. I thought well this is it I am going to start my period and early at that. But nope, nothing. Saturday, nothing. Sunday afternoon when I got up I was sooooo not going to test. I just didn't want to see that single line. But after a few minutes of debating I peed on the darn stick. To my surprise I could see a very very faint second line!!! I thought well this can't be, but a line is a line is a line...

Monday morning I got up at 6am and tested...a darker faint line!!! And this morning at 6am and even darker line!!! Went for my Beta hcg and it was 51.2. I guess that's normal, what really matters is how much it goes up in the next 48 hours. Next beta is Thursday morning!! I am still cautiously optimistic and will probably not tell anyone for a while! But for now...

I am pregnant!!