Been a long time!! 9 months old already!! (Almost)

How the time flies? What a road it has been! I love love love being a Mama! Baylee is perfect, just absolutely perfect. She has grown and developed and learns and moves and grooves!! I love that little critter! Big changes for us. Right before Christmas, Baylee and I moved to NH, to be closer to my family. Tracy stayed in NC to take care of some loose ends with the house. 2 months and a lot of tears later she finally joined us. What a relief to have my family back together.
I have a decent job working as an RN Supervisor at a nursing home. It's good. I miss my old job a lot. But honestly, this one is less stressful. They like me there so I guess it's not so bad.

OK, let's try to get some pics posted!!

Welcome to the world: Baylee Cecile!!

I am speechless! I cannot believe my daughter is finely here! I can't believe I have a daughter! She is absolutely perfect!

I have an amazing birth story to share but for now I am going to post some pictures. She was successful born at home! She's a tiny peanut. 5 lbs 9 oz 19 inches. Born at 38 weeks.

36 almost 37 weeks!

Time sure is flying by!! Working so hard to get ready, seems like the harder we work to get ready the less ready we are!! We have about 98% of the Home Birth stuff together. We are cleared time wise for a home birth on Wednesday but the home visit is not till the following Tuesday, so she must stay put!! ( I am sure that if I go into between Wednesday and Tuesday I can surely get one of the midwives to come out to do my home visit!) I am not really nervous. I am more worried about going over my due date and needing to be induced. that scares me more than anything!

Started going back to get acupuncture, that is nice. I feel better ready! I also went to the chiropractor for the first time!! Holy crap, I am addicted! That feels soooooooooo good! They are my heroes! I just love it! They are working on widening my pelvis for delivery. The acupuncturist is working is working on softening my joints and my cervix.

So I have a bunch of pictures to post. Some of my regular belly picks and so just random other pictures.

I HAVE STRETCH MARKS!!

Testing out the birth tub. Yup, it's kiddie pool!!

31 and a half weeks

Not to much to say. Just growing this little baby inside me. She feels much bigger when she moves around! Trying to get stuff ready fro our home birth. Birthing classes start this Thursday, we are very excited for that. Washing all of Baylee's stuff in small loads, one day at a time. Sent my Grandmother a Mother's Day card and wrote in it that her middle name will be Cecile after her. Apparently she did not get it yet. Hopefully tomorrow. I was having some sciatic nerve pain but it has cleared up. I don't sleep very well at night and some nights I retreat to the couch. I believe we need a king sized bed!! Nothing impressive with weight gain, I am grateful for that. My appetite is normal, I crave fruit a lot, got to try to stay away from carbs cause I barely passed my glucose tolerance test. Here's some belly pics from today! Happy Mother's Day!!

26 week quick update!

Quickie update. All is well in the world of pregnancy. I feel great. Have plenty of energy and have not aches and pain, except for the occasional night time leg cramps. My work schedule has improved home life and stress level. I love being home at night and on the weekends. We made our finally decision to have a midwife assisted home birth. We are very excited! We are going to rent a birthing tube and put it in the sunroom! I think it will be great! My midwives are the best and I trust them to provide the best support and care in my home. So enjoying the spring weather we are having! Baylee's nursery is about finished. Here are some picture updates!!

IT'S A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate that it has taken me so long to post this!! Such an exciting week last week!! First off this ultrasound was amazing!! I was overwhelmed with emotion to see this little person moving around inside me. I cried, laughed, and was just in overall awe at how beautiful she looks to me already. I can't stop staring at the ultrasound pictures. Tracy and I both are just so in love with little person! I would have been just as happy for a boy but a little girl! I can't even put into words how I feel. All I keep thinking about is how special a relationship there is between and a mother and her daughter. We are just over the moon.

While sitting in the doctor's office after the ultrasound we were dis cussing what we are going to name her. Well we have always known that we would name her Baylee. But the middle name was somewhat up for discussion. It was going to be Glenn after Tracy's Grandmother. Well for some reason at that particular moment I thought "We should all have the same last name." In NC we cannot get married. I asked Tracy if we could change our last name to Glenn and give Baylee my Grandmother's name as a middle name. After some discussion about it we have decided that that is the way to go. So her name is Baylee Cecile! And we will start the legal process of changing our last names ASAP.

In other news. The same day as my ultrasound we went to Goodwill to shop for some baby clothes. (We are thrift store junkies.) I got a phone call from work. Long store short, I got the job I had applied for!! And I started on Tuesday!! NO MORE NIGHT SHIFT!! WOOOO HOOOOOOO!!! I will love this job so much!!

So I actually had the weekend off!! And I was busy! I painted some items for Baylee's room! Check out the pics. More to follow as I get more done in there!!

The dresser was a pale yellow color, the changing table was just wood, and the shelves were obviously just white!! We want lots of color in there!! So much more to do!! Oh and the paint...didn't spend a dime! It's all stuff we had around the house!

Blah Blah Blah: A bit of a ranting post!

I don't know why I can't accept things for what they are? I guess maybe I don't do well with change unless it is my idea. So here it goes I am going to lay it out and maybe after I finish typing I will fell better.

Deep breath...Back in October right after I found out I was pregnant I was offered a "new" job. Basically it would get me off night shift 2 nights a weeks. I would work 2 days and 1 night. During the day I would be doing a job that I know I would really enjoy!! I would be filling in for the Resident Care Coordinator. So months go by and they can't find anyone to fill my nights, and the census goes done, and long story short I am still on night shift. ( For now, more on that later).

While all this is going on Tracy is out on disability for her back. Physical therapy, tests, Doctor's appointments, we get slapped with a bill for her deductible. We then get slapped with a bill for my deductible. Totaling $5000!! Tracy's only bringing in 60% of her income, not likely that we can pay that.

Mid December we get the news from Tracy's work that she may actually lose her job. She carries both of our health insurance. Not good. But I take care of business for myself and get enrolled at work during open enrollment, one problem solved. At the beginning of January Tracy asked for an extension of her FMLA go finish up some tests before returning to work. They deny it and kindly terminate her from her position saying she is welcome to apply for any open positions, conveniently enough there are not positions available. Whatever, she seems quite relieve to be done with all that drama.

I probably had a few melt downs over all this. I mean really that is a huge chunk of our household income now gone. She applies for unemployment and goes to Vocational Reheb. Unemployment says they are back logged 8 weeks and it could take up to 12 weeks before she gets a check. OK I don;t know how many people can go 12 weeks without a pay check but fortunately it doesn't put us in immediate dire straights.

Tracy is not one to just sit around, she has lots of ideas and plans. Honestly, I don't always give her the support she needs when it comes to this area. But I am trying. She decides that a job is better than no job. So she takes a part time job with an hourly wage that is half of what she was making before. I am grateful that she wants so badly to contribute. The job is not easy for her to do because her back is still not well.

So my cry baby self now has to get used to the idea that she is not going to be around my every waking moment. I guess I got used to her always being home. Now she is working on the days I am off, just a few hours. And 2 nights that I work she leaves for work either right before or right after I get up. OK now just looking at this, 2 nights, really and I am upset about this. I am sure some couples work completely opposite days and shifts and hardly see eachother.

I guess this upsets me because I treasure our time together. You just never know what moment will be your last and I like to try to have as much time together as possible.

So then good news comes to the home front. There are some positions shifting at work and I applied for the Resident Care Coordinator position because the current person in that position is being promoted. There is no reason why I should not get this job. I would be working Monday-Friday day shift. I think I will feel a lot better emotionally and physically. I want to be home every night. My body is craving a normal schedule. Please everyone pray that I get this job and that our lives come back together.

More on this later. And on a much happier note: OUR ULTRASOUND IS MONDAY!!!! GIRL OR BOY???? We will see!!!!!